It has been quite some time now since Dr Jane Derges sat in my front room and asked me questions about my internet usage when I was feeling suicidal. It was a really interesting conversation and while Dr Derges had some very specific questions, unlike other studies I have taken part in it was a…… Continue reading Suicidal Behaviour and Internet Usage
Last year I wrote a piece for Rethink Mental Illness about how my relationship with Hubs had been bumpy thanks to my having bipolar, how I hadn’t been able to choose when to disclose it to him because on our second date I had a manic episode! This story has now been published on the…… Continue reading New Publicity
March 5th, one of those days I wish I could erase from the year completely, no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try today makes me think of the man who has always been and always be a monster for me…my biological father. Today is his birthday which means I automatically remember…… Continue reading The Monster in my Mind
So, there I was looking for travel insurance (check out my post from last year to delve into THAT minefield!), when I come across this site. What? “A condition formerly known as Depression” really? That’s how you’re going to sell insurance cover for bipolar disorder to people with bipolar disorder who know all about bipolar…… Continue reading A World of Misinformation
Today kicks off this year’s Eating Disorder’s Awareness Week, it seemed appropriate to have a guest post from someone living with an eating disorder so I welcome Claire to the blog. She is talking about her experiences of receiving treatment for anorexia when she also has type 1 diabetes, which complicates the treatment significantly. I…… Continue reading Guest Post: Claire’s Story Eating Disorder-Diabetes Mellitus Type 1
I’m really pleased to welcome Lystia from bookmeditationretreats.com to the blog today. These guys offer some amazing meditation and yoga retreats all over the world and if there is one thing I’ve learned as someone who used to be incredibly resistant to meditation, it’s that we all need some quiet meditation time now and again…… Continue reading Guest Post: 5 Easy Yet Effective Ways to Calm Yourself Down When You’re Feeling Anxious
Trigger Warning: Mild Reference Self Harm When I started this year and decided to go for a more positive approach to things I didn’t forget that life throws crap at you and I didn’t forget that I have Bipolar which throws unpredictable mood swings at you. What I did forget is that everything can happen…… Continue reading Doh!
In December 2015 my referral to what is known as the Community Rehabilitation Team was finalised, I had been through an assessment and was accepted. At that point in time being referred into this team was an alternative to inpatient treatment and was my lifeline to the real world. The catch, because of its intensive…… Continue reading Catch 22
I know I haven’t been around here much recently. I felt like I was on repeat, every post I tried to write sounded like a post I had already written and I didn’t want to regurgitate something that was already here, not for the sake of putting words on a blog. Things have changed a…… Continue reading Positive Futures Today
A few days ago I wrote Part 1 of this summary, here is what happened in the final half of the Freedom of Mind Conference and my thoughts around it. The Keynote Speech from Rebecca Cross who is the Strategic Commissioning Manager for Children looked at how the Bristol CCG carried out inclusive research to…… Continue reading Freedom of Mind Conference – Part 2
Monday saw the final event in the Freedom of Mind Festival calendar, a one day conference discussing young people’s mental health. This wasn’t necessarily about illness and the point at which young people need mental health services but mental health in general. Ensuring young people are mentally well so that less young people ultimately need…… Continue reading Freedom of Mind Conference – Part 1
A short time ago I wrote a review of a festival I went to which was slanted by my mental health and how I dealt with going to a festival having had severe anxiety for a very long time on the run up to it. This review has now been shortlisted in a competition (yay!),…… Continue reading A Plea For Help!
I will be taking a break from the blog for a short time until the middle of next month. Don’t worry I will be back with more mental health talk very soon!
Walking out of Darkness is a suicide awareness walk organised by CLASP Charity Saturday saw the first event outside of London which was great for us based in the south west as it was a walk from Bath to Bristol, right in my stomping ground. The purpose of these walks is to raise awareness of suicide,…… Continue reading Walking Out Of Darkness – Bath to Bristol
We went to a barbecue at the weekend and while we were there one of my friends mentioned that the buses which run to the local hospital were being axed as the council had pulled their funding. This is an old story and one that living here you get used to. We live in a…… Continue reading Bus Drama & Petition
A few months ago a friend suggested we go to Bloodstock, in a moment of “what the hell” I bought a ticket. A few years ago this would have been completely normal for me, I went to festivals all the time. But at the time of buying the ticket, I couldn’t even manage to walk…… Continue reading Bloodstock Open Air – Slaying A Festival
One of the things sure to send my mental health into overdrive is being judged. One of the things I’m judged on more than anything else is my decision not to have children. Everyone, no matter who they are feels they have a right to make a judgement on this piece of information. This isn’t…… Continue reading Judged
How often do you think about yourself? I mean properly think of yourself and put yourself first. One of the biggest problems in our modern world is that most of us are focused on external things and people. So much so that it is almost impossible for us to look internally and take time for…… Continue reading Stop. Take A Breath.
As somebody with Bipolar, I have always suffered with Anxiety, it had always been at a manageable level where I could control the panic attacks and shield myself from the worst of it. But last year it escalated to the point where I found myself unable to leave my home, or to even pick up…… Continue reading Facing Social Anxiety with Graded Exposure
Today I am honoured to welcome Aimee to BrizzleLass. Aimee has written a truly moving post on her battle to get the correct diagnosis, one she knows in her heart is correct, but she has really struggled to get the professionals to recognise. As a result she hasn’t received the correct treatment. I am sure…… Continue reading Guest Post: Chasing the Correct Diagnosis
I’ve posted a few times about Mental Health Voices the Twitter account I set up to develop a peer based community for people to be able to openly talk about mental health. What I don’t talk about are the problems I have related to running the account but I feel now is a time to…… Continue reading Crashing Down
About seven hours ago I woke up to the news Britain had voted to leave the EU, I didn’t stay up through the night to watch the results coming in, as I wanted to stick to my sleep routine, and I was concerned watching it could trigger some mental health issues. But as I woke…… Continue reading Broken, Beat and Scarred
Today I have a guest blog from Sarah-Jayne about living with Dissociative Identity Disorder, this is a mental health condition we don’t hear an awful lot about and this post is quite eye opening in terms of what living with this condition can be like. Like most mental health diagnoses Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is…… Continue reading Guest Post: Dissociative Identity Disorder
I am so pleased to welcome Kaisha to BrizzleLass with her story of Chronic Illness and Depression. Many people don’t appreciate how having a chronic illness can have such an adverse affect on mental health or even the other way around. I thank Kaisha for her honesty in telling her story, and for sharing it…… Continue reading Guest Post: Depression and Chronic Illness
A year ago Mental Health Voices on twitter went live. I honestly didn’t think it would take off, I thought it was one of those ideas that you have, the kind you think is a good idea but everyone else is going to laugh at. But here we are a year later and it’s still…… Continue reading Mental Health Voices First Anniversary
I’ve been distant lately, life has been handing me lemons, and I’ve been hiding behind the lemon pile and keeping quiet. It began when just as I was expecting to hit the height of a manic episode, the ESA Capability to Work form fell on my doormat, completely unexpected given I am currently in the…… Continue reading When Life Hands You Lemons…
Mental Health Awareness Week is upon us again, it’s a week when mental health becomes the buzz word once again. But for those of us living with a mental illness, mental health isn’t a buzzword and every week is mental health awareness week. People like me talk about our mental health daily, we share our…… Continue reading Mental Health Awareness Week … Be Aware Always
I wanted to introduce a series of posts where others talk about their experiences with mental health and how they have been affected, have overcome them, what tools they use. It’s an opportunity for us to explore a wider world of mental health issues than just those I have experience of, and the same issues…… Continue reading Guest Post: Anxiety, Where It Came From and How I Manage It
Almost five weeks ago now I noticed my mood was elevating. This was the first time ever that I caught the early signs of hypomania and it was because I have been mood monitoring and practicing mindfulness meaning that the early warning signs were more easy to notice than they ever have been before. I…… Continue reading Struggling for Sanity
It’s so nice when somebody you know does more than talk the talk but they actually do something with that talk. Many of us talk a lot about wanting to change things in the world of mental health but don’t do much more than that. Katie who I met through Twitter took her passion and has…… Continue reading Freedom of Mind Festival
As I write I feel a long way from depression, in reality I’m one crisis. I’m currently on the verge of tipping into a full manic episode. If I do, then crisis point won’t be far and with it the fall into a deep dark depression. As someone with bipolar this is my reality, I’m,…… Continue reading Depression Awareness Week 2016 – Bipolar Depression
In the past couple of days there has been a social media uproar over Stephen Fry’s comments on American television surrounding abuse and rape victims and their “self pity”. In the interview where he stated: “There are many great plays which contain rapes, and the word rape now is even considered a rape.” “It’s a…… Continue reading The Stephen Fry Comments
I had my CPA on Friday which was finished this week, this is basically a review of my mental health service to ensure that things are going in the right direction and everyone involved is happy with my progress. The rehabilitation team I am receiving my service from until the end of the year are…… Continue reading Have I Reached My Turning Point?
Yesterday morning I asked blog readers to let me know how they thought the benefit cuts which were expected in the budget would affect them in the real world. Thank you to everyone who responded, these are very honest and moving answers. “Every time there’s a budget I’m terrified George Osborne will do something that…… Continue reading Benefit Cuts – How Will It Affect Those With Mental Health?
Later today George Osborne is expected to make further cuts to disability benefits, this is likely to have adverse affects on those with mental health issues, tomorrow I want to show how these expected cuts are likely to affect people like us. Drop me a comment or tweet me @BrizzleLass to let me know your…… Continue reading The Budget – Feedback
It’s approaching that time of year when people start jetting off on their summer holiday’s. There are often posts written as holiday season kicks off talking about how to handle holiday anxiety, and ensuring you have the best time you can have. But one thing that is not often talked about is travel insurance. Many…… Continue reading The Trouble with Finding Travel Insurance with a Mental Health Condition
Anybody who has been part of the mental health system for any period of time knows that diagnosis is a complicated and not always a permanent situation. I’ve blogged before about how despite recognising myself as Bipolar, because this is the diagnosis most often used by my various psychiatrists, I have been given other diagnosis…… Continue reading The Diagnosis of Psychiatric Conditions
N.B. This post is in no way belittling, dismissing, or ignoring eating disorders such as anorexia and bulimia. Please do not think I do not have love and sympathy for anybody suffering with these destructive diseases and know that I am very aware there is a severe lack of psychological support for them. This is merely…… Continue reading The Other Side of Food Struggles
This week mental health has been a firm fixture in the news. It seems not a day has passed without an announcement or story popping up about mental health. This is great and we need to see more mental health stories appearing in the news. But a week like this shouldn’t be an anomaly. We…… Continue reading Mental Health Week?
This year, the theme of Children’s Mental Health Week, is “building resilience” and teaching children how to “bounce forward” from life’s challenges. https://youtu.be/21jqtJ-UB_w I was one of the lucky children who had access to mental health services. In 1989 at nine years old my Mum finally reached breaking point with my mental health, she knew…… Continue reading Children’s Mental Health Week 2016
Today is Time to Talk Day, the day where the nation is encouraged to talk about mental health with another person. I guess, for me, every day is Time to Talk Day, mental health is a prominent part of life for me, my Husband and I talk daily about how I am, the progress I’ve…… Continue reading Time to Talk Day 2016 – Mental Health Voices
There is much talk in the mental health community around recovery. People talk about their own recovery. Doctor’s talk about recovery. I don’t know about the rest of the U.K. but here in Bristol the primary care teams are even called Recovery. I’ve always had a problem with the word Recovery for several reasons. The main reason…… Continue reading Rehabilitation vs Recovery
Hello to you all and a belated happy new year. I felt it was time to just check in and let you all know I am OK. Towards the end of last year I started to really struggle with aspects of my Bipolar and combined with consistent issues I was having on social media I…… Continue reading A Brief Update
…so I chose some from one of my favourite books to say it for me today. “I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something…… Continue reading Lost for words…
Every so often someone with a big Twitter following, and some would say celebrity status and so authority, says something which is just down right questionable. Today being one of those days, someone I followed shared this into my timeline commenting on their disappointment at the words… I will be honest, I had no idea…… Continue reading Another Twitter Mental Health Blunder…
TW: Brief mention of self harm and suicidal ideations. I don’t know how I am finding the words to write this at the moment, mental illness is destructive at times, a curse and right now I am living through one of those moments. Bipolar Disorder brings it’s sparks of creativity, it becomes so much a…… Continue reading Blog Action Day – Raise Your Voice for Mental Health
I’ve been a bit distant from the world lately. I’m wallowing, having been dealt a blow regarding the therapy I need but won’t be getting and spiralling into an even deeper depression I’ve also picked up the flu. Not the flu but it’s really a bad cold, this is proper, knocked for six, full body…… Continue reading Let’s Get A Few Things Clear…
Today is Bipolar Awareness Day, a day just for raising awareness of this pesky illness I spend a lot of time yapping about on this blog! This year Bipolar UK have asked people to submit their stories on the subject #BipolarAndMe. As I write this I’m conscious I’m in the depressive end of my cycle…… Continue reading Bipolar And Me for Bipolar Awareness Day 2015
TW: References to Suicide and Self Harm Rethink Mental Illness have launched this year’s Schizophrenia Awareness Week with this moving video featuring real people whose lives are touched with Schizophrenia. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jjmn7qAjco8 I don’t have Schizophrenia, but one in 100 people do, so chances are you will at least know somebody thoughout your life with this…… Continue reading Schizophrenia Awareness Week 2015
I actually remember the very first time I turned to the Internet for information about my mental health. This may seem insignificant to many of my younger readers, but in 2001 there wasn’t very much information available. I found one site which had the information I was looking for, my GP had mentioned something in…… Continue reading Mental Health and Self Diagnosis
I realised today that it has been a while since I’ve written a mental health related post on here myself, I’ve posted a few from guests but I haven’t actually written any myself for a while. I find it hard to open up when I’m deep in depression, it’s easier to focus on the mundane,…… Continue reading The Crash Pad Moment