Medicating the Stress

“Even bipolar vampires needed sleep from time to time, and he was well past his recommended safe dosage of stress.”
― Rachel Caine, Black Dawn

I’ve taken a break from writing for a few days after the events of last week. Actually, I’ve taken a break from pretty much everything after the events of last week.

I am now on additional medication and my anxiety levels are being controlled via this medication helping to manage my stress levels. I am slightly numb to the world around me at the moment, like someone looking in on my life.

My family have been fantastic, I don’t know what I would have done without them this past week. We spent the weekend staying with my parents for a break from this house and the trouble my landlord, Jezebel, is causing.

I wish I could sleep, I feel if I could sleep properly, rather than these stunted bits of time that I get here and there, that I would pull some sanity back from the edge and start feeling like me again.

Despite the current depressed state and wild loss of control here and there, I keep having mild manic episodes aswell. I find myself slipping into episodes where I am loud and talking fast and non-stop. Getting that itching to be doing something even though I’m not physically up to it and feeling like the world around me is going slow. Then BANG, it’s all over and I’m down at rock bottom again.

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3 thoughts on “Medicating the Stress

  1. This is the perfect description of what im currently going through. Makes it hard to pull yourself back from the brink of insanity.

    The Bipolar Manic-Depressive
    Eleenah.wordpress.com

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  2. Thanks for your comment Eleenah. I'm sorry you are suffering aswell. I don't know about you but I can almost deal with the mania or the depression but the swinging from one to the other is exhausting and makes each episode so much harder to deal with.

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  3. Thats exactly my problem also, its the transition, the actual episode can be tolerable or not depending on the severity of it, but its the transition for me aswell

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