I had my CPA on Friday which was finished this week, this is basically a review of my mental health service to ensure that things are going in the right direction and everyone involved is happy with my progress. The rehabilitation team I am receiving my service from until the end of the year are far more pro-active with their reviews and really take on what I have to say and ensure that what I have to say is incorporated into my recovery plan for the next three months.
One of the things we discussed is that I’ve reached the point now where being home is starting to have a negative impact on my mental health. When I first got sick I needed to stop working, I’ve needed the time I’ve had to look after myself. But after two years of focusing on myself I’ve reached a point where I’m now frustrated with being at home all the time, I miss working, I miss seeing people and talking with people.
I’m not ready to be in the working world just yet but this is the kind of feeling I’ve needed to find, I knew I wanted to get back to work but I’ve not had that real feeling of needing it for a long time.
I’m hoping that this is my turning point, that this is the start of the road back to a real life again, that I might just achieve my goal of being in a functioning life again by this time next year. Fingers crossed?