I don’t tend to say much beyond a few words on social media when there is a celebrity death, even when it’s linked to mental health I tend to sit back and keep quiet letting the noise run through but something about the noise around Chester Bennington’s tragic death has moved me and I feel the need to speak.
Chester Bennington wore several hats but most notably was the lead singer of Linkin Park. There are few who won’t have heard of them and I was privileged to have seen them live a few times over the years and Chester commanded the stage.
It was no secret he struggled with depression and addiction problems and he took his life at just 41 years.
I thought people’s understanding of mental health was further forward than it is. I’ve seen so much vitriol towards Chester online for taking his own life. So much hate, and anger. Including Brian Welch from Korn writing a Facebook post where he calls suicide cowardly.
I’ve been in this position, several times, but on one in particular I almost died. I know first hand what it means to reach the point where you see no other way out than to take your own life and the last thing in the world it is is cowardly. It is fucking terrifying. It is the scariest thing in the world to go through with a suicide plan, but it also feels like the only option you have left. That is something that will probably make no sense to anybody who hasn’t been THAT depressed, and hasn’t felt THAT need to end their life. But I promise you no coward would do it.
I also hate all this abuse, what does hurling abuse at people who are gone do? It doesn’t bring them back, and it only hurts the people they left behind. Their families have to now pick up the pieces, try to come to an understanding of why this happened, where his mind was, why things got so bad for him. All the abuse hurling, name calling only hurts them. If people feel they need to deal with their own fried by venting in that way do it privately not somewhere the family could see it, have some bloody respect!
Finally, and this is a real annoyance for me and I don’t normally bother with stuff like this, people commit murder, they commit rape, they commit crimes. People don’t commit suicide! They die from suicide! When the hell are we going to stop using this archaic language?! Suicide is no longer a crime! That went out with dark ages we need to start showing some respect, maybe if we start talking about it a bit more respectfully people will start respecting the mental health issues connected to it.
As for Chester Bennington a light went out with him, he was an extremely talented man who could light up a stage. I’m deeply saddened for the pain he must have been suffering and my thoughts are with his family and friends.