After fifteen years as a blogger, I’ve been beaten.
I look at where I am right now and what I’m getting from blogging and what I answer is stress. So this will be my final post on here, I’m walking away and discovering life away from the world of blogs.
Closing the book blog will be a little more time consuming and complicated but that one will be going as well. My visitor numbers have fallen to almost non-existent on both blogs, even the features which used to be very popular are now barely scraping 50 visitors. It’s not worth the time and effort I put in.
I’ve been so stressed about both blogs recently, I tried revamping things on this blog with new features but they have fallen flat on their face. People just aren’t interested in anything I’ve got to say any more, and that’s cool. I have journals for my own private ranting.
I’ve been really struggling with depression this week, nothing I do is helping pull me out of it, and the blogs are really central to the way I’m feeling. They are pulling me into a dark pit of despair, worrying what I should be writing, why I should be writing it, why it’s not working like it used to.
I used to enjoy writing the blogs, but I don’t anymore, I stress about them and they get in the way of other writing and things I want to be doing that I do enjoy. Posts on the book blog take about two hours a time to put together all to flop each time. It’s heartbreaking.
I’ve decided that the best thing is to just pull the plug and give myself a fresh start with no blog in my life. I’ve not been blog free since 2002 so that will be a novelty. I have commitments until January with the book blog so it will take a while to ride that one out but once those are seen through I’m done.
To those I’ve spoken to regularly it’s been a pleasure. To the lurkers, thank you.