It has been quite some time now since Dr Jane Derges sat in my front room and asked me questions about my internet usage when I was feeling suicidal. It was a really interesting conversation and while Dr Derges had some very specific questions, unlike other studies I have taken part in it was a…… Continue reading Suicidal Behaviour and Internet Usage
March 5th, one of those days I wish I could erase from the year completely, no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try today makes me think of the man who has always been and always be a monster for me…my biological father. Today is his birthday which means I automatically remember…… Continue reading The Monster in my Mind
Trigger Warning: Mild Reference Self Harm When I started this year and decided to go for a more positive approach to things I didn’t forget that life throws crap at you and I didn’t forget that I have Bipolar which throws unpredictable mood swings at you. What I did forget is that everything can happen…… Continue reading Doh!
In December 2015 my referral to what is known as the Community Rehabilitation Team was finalised, I had been through an assessment and was accepted. At that point in time being referred into this team was an alternative to inpatient treatment and was my lifeline to the real world. The catch, because of its intensive…… Continue reading Catch 22
I know I haven’t been around here much recently. I felt like I was on repeat, every post I tried to write sounded like a post I had already written and I didn’t want to regurgitate something that was already here, not for the sake of putting words on a blog. Things have changed a…… Continue reading Positive Futures Today
A few days ago I wrote Part 1 of this summary, here is what happened in the final half of the Freedom of Mind Conference and my thoughts around it. The Keynote Speech from Rebecca Cross who is the Strategic Commissioning Manager for Children looked at how the Bristol CCG carried out inclusive research to…… Continue reading Freedom of Mind Conference – Part 2
Monday saw the final event in the Freedom of Mind Festival calendar, a one day conference discussing young people’s mental health. This wasn’t necessarily about illness and the point at which young people need mental health services but mental health in general. Ensuring young people are mentally well so that less young people ultimately need…… Continue reading Freedom of Mind Conference – Part 1
A short time ago I wrote a review of a festival I went to which was slanted by my mental health and how I dealt with going to a festival having had severe anxiety for a very long time on the run up to it. This review has now been shortlisted in a competition (yay!),…… Continue reading A Plea For Help!
We went to a barbecue at the weekend and while we were there one of my friends mentioned that the buses which run to the local hospital were being axed as the council had pulled their funding. This is an old story and one that living here you get used to. We live in a…… Continue reading Bus Drama & Petition
How often do you think about yourself? I mean properly think of yourself and put yourself first. One of the biggest problems in our modern world is that most of us are focused on external things and people. So much so that it is almost impossible for us to look internally and take time for…… Continue reading Stop. Take A Breath.
Today I am honoured to welcome Aimee to BrizzleLass. Aimee has written a truly moving post on her battle to get the correct diagnosis, one she knows in her heart is correct, but she has really struggled to get the professionals to recognise. As a result she hasn’t received the correct treatment. I am sure…… Continue reading Guest Post: Chasing the Correct Diagnosis
I’ve posted a few times about Mental Health Voices the Twitter account I set up to develop a peer based community for people to be able to openly talk about mental health. What I don’t talk about are the problems I have related to running the account but I feel now is a time to…… Continue reading Crashing Down
About seven hours ago I woke up to the news Britain had voted to leave the EU, I didn’t stay up through the night to watch the results coming in, as I wanted to stick to my sleep routine, and I was concerned watching it could trigger some mental health issues. But as I woke…… Continue reading Broken, Beat and Scarred
Today I have a guest blog from Sarah-Jayne about living with Dissociative Identity Disorder, this is a mental health condition we don’t hear an awful lot about and this post is quite eye opening in terms of what living with this condition can be like. Like most mental health diagnoses Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is…… Continue reading Guest Post: Dissociative Identity Disorder
I am so pleased to welcome Kaisha to BrizzleLass with her story of Chronic Illness and Depression. Many people don’t appreciate how having a chronic illness can have such an adverse affect on mental health or even the other way around. I thank Kaisha for her honesty in telling her story, and for sharing it…… Continue reading Guest Post: Depression and Chronic Illness
A year ago Mental Health Voices on twitter went live. I honestly didn’t think it would take off, I thought it was one of those ideas that you have, the kind you think is a good idea but everyone else is going to laugh at. But here we are a year later and it’s still…… Continue reading Mental Health Voices First Anniversary
I’ve been distant lately, life has been handing me lemons, and I’ve been hiding behind the lemon pile and keeping quiet. It began when just as I was expecting to hit the height of a manic episode, the ESA Capability to Work form fell on my doormat, completely unexpected given I am currently in the…… Continue reading When Life Hands You Lemons…
Almost five weeks ago now I noticed my mood was elevating. This was the first time ever that I caught the early signs of hypomania and it was because I have been mood monitoring and practicing mindfulness meaning that the early warning signs were more easy to notice than they ever have been before. I…… Continue reading Struggling for Sanity
It’s so nice when somebody you know does more than talk the talk but they actually do something with that talk. Many of us talk a lot about wanting to change things in the world of mental health but don’t do much more than that. Katie who I met through Twitter took her passion and has…… Continue reading Freedom of Mind Festival
In the past couple of days there has been a social media uproar over Stephen Fry’s comments on American television surrounding abuse and rape victims and their “self pity”. In the interview where he stated: “There are many great plays which contain rapes, and the word rape now is even considered a rape.” “It’s a…… Continue reading The Stephen Fry Comments
I had my CPA on Friday which was finished this week, this is basically a review of my mental health service to ensure that things are going in the right direction and everyone involved is happy with my progress. The rehabilitation team I am receiving my service from until the end of the year are…… Continue reading Have I Reached My Turning Point?
Yesterday morning I asked blog readers to let me know how they thought the benefit cuts which were expected in the budget would affect them in the real world. Thank you to everyone who responded, these are very honest and moving answers. “Every time there’s a budget I’m terrified George Osborne will do something that…… Continue reading Benefit Cuts – How Will It Affect Those With Mental Health?
It’s approaching that time of year when people start jetting off on their summer holiday’s. There are often posts written as holiday season kicks off talking about how to handle holiday anxiety, and ensuring you have the best time you can have. But one thing that is not often talked about is travel insurance. Many…… Continue reading The Trouble with Finding Travel Insurance with a Mental Health Condition
This week mental health has been a firm fixture in the news. It seems not a day has passed without an announcement or story popping up about mental health. This is great and we need to see more mental health stories appearing in the news. But a week like this shouldn’t be an anomaly. We…… Continue reading Mental Health Week?
This year, the theme of Children’s Mental Health Week, is “building resilience” and teaching children how to “bounce forward” from life’s challenges. https://youtu.be/21jqtJ-UB_w I was one of the lucky children who had access to mental health services. In 1989 at nine years old my Mum finally reached breaking point with my mental health, she knew…… Continue reading Children’s Mental Health Week 2016
Today is Time to Talk Day, the day where the nation is encouraged to talk about mental health with another person. I guess, for me, every day is Time to Talk Day, mental health is a prominent part of life for me, my Husband and I talk daily about how I am, the progress I’ve…… Continue reading Time to Talk Day 2016 – Mental Health Voices